The Spinning Machine and other Lucid Dreams

Woke up at Midnight and began meditating... Did the mula bandha engage meant on 4 separate occasions.... Listened to the nada on and off, succeeded in finally getting to a place of very quiet mind.... Expressed total surrender in to the infinite and a deep gnawing hunger for the divine, but released attachment to having any kind of experience like the previous nights. After an hour, I got up, went to the bathroom and then got dressed and went up to my office. I laid out a mat and pillows for shavaasana, laid down, covered myself with two sheets and meditated more... All in all I would assume I was meditating about 3 hours but I have no Idea.... I heard the nada, particularly loud, but didn't get transported in to the vortex. I felt my awareness shift to various states of consciousness....Finally was listening to the nada, and it seemed to pull me in not like the vortex, but just the pure sound of it got louder and louder..... 1. Suddenly I was standing on top of a truck... Completely Lucid Dream, I knew I was dreaming and the world spread around me almost as real as the physical world..... The wind whipped through my hair, I look behind the truck and see a series of overpasses... There is another trucker driving a different direction, I see him in the cab of his truck and marvel at how lucid and convincing this dream is.... The truck I am riding on starts to veer off onto a dirt road. I must have become unconscious because.... 2. Then I was at CorePower and they had some new crazy machine that spins you. There was no one in the lobby except Jaina so I got inside it and started to spin me.... It started out gentle enough, but then started spinning faster and faster, and then a vortex opened up in my third eye, that was all white light, and every cell in my body was whipping... and It was so intense that I thought I couldn't take it, but I didn't know any more how to turn the machine off because now it was pitch black except for the lights in my third eye, so I pressed into my feet, and let go. 3. I realized that I was back lying on my back on the floor of my office where I had been meditating... The Nada had become disturbingly loud.... I had my eyes closed, but I could hear something tapping in the room... It was getting louder and louder.... I opened my eyes and the room was lit with eerie light, and there were two disembodied malls tapping on the wall of the room.... Everything was alive type feeling, a bit over whelming... I just laid on the floor realizing that kundalini had awakened, just like I'd wanted, but now it was insane, and I was apprehensive.... I didn't succumb to fear though, just wondered how I would function in the world with all the noises raging in my ear.... 4. I heard my alarm faintly and realized I had left it down stairs on the kitchen table.... I got up, said namaste, as I looked left I saw through the window that the neighbors had their lights on and I could see into their house. I walked down the stairs dark hallway and then the stairs very carefully.... I walked down to the kitchen, but now there was someone sitting at the kitchen table drinking tea. At first I thought it was Jaina, but it wasn't. It was a woman with an India accent.... I walked over to look at a picture next to the half bath. It was a black and white of an old man and looked to be from the early 1900s... He told me that it was best to not talk about these experiences... To keep them secret and not even tell Dr. Parker. I went over and sat on the floor by the fridge and the woman came over and sat next to me. She had a young face, but seemed very very old in the authoritative way that she talked. She was telling me something, and the rushing vortex feeling began reeling in my body again. I don't remember what she was saying, but she was very calm, and very articulate, and I remember that the sound of here voice was very clear and audible, I could hear the tone, and texture. I realized this must be a dream and so I lay back on the kitchen floor to meditate and in surrender and closed my eyes, and darkness surrounded me. She climbed on top of me and merged into my body, the whole time explaining what she was doing and what was happening to me. It was not lustful or sexual but had the intensity of the vortex. As she merged with my body the feeling became even stronger Like in the spinning machine at core power. It was so intense that it hurt.... I can't remember where, but I remember thinking, I want this to feel good, and be healthy for my body, but it seems its not entirely.... 5. I realized I was now late to teach the Friday morning class in Edina.... I got up to rush out the door, but my Aunts were all visiting (Linda, Nancy and Patty). Outside my mom had ordered probably 12 cubic yards of organic topsoil which was lying on the boulevard... The neighbor was now out working in his yard.... I got in my dads car to go to work.... 6. Then there was something about the police... I was walking through a crowded bus station at 4:00 am and there were police plain clothed and in Uniform amongst us... I was walking briskly now with two other people and it was wintery cold outside.... One of the officers Reported to a Seargent in a truck and said his name which I remeber thinking was the perfect name for a cop... An I was so impressed that I quietly said tsomething to my friends....

I believe I last wrote about the house of the god, in that magical place, where the surface structure was a tiny shack, but inside a straight stairway went down deep into the ground. A few nights ago I dreamed that I was studying with a native american teacher named Coyote. He gave me aya as a sizzling hot resin, that might be what a melted jolly rather would look like. LAter I went to his house. He lived with his four adult daughters. His house had the same staircase, 4 stories down.

It has to stop here.

It has to stop here.

Jaina and I had gone back to 1411 Girard to get some last things.  MArk and Lori were in the back yard.  They started yelling at us the moment we walked up, so I went over and turned on my digital recorder.  Then we walked up.  I tried to stay calm, but the conversation escalated when I told them that they poisoned our kids.  They said that they didn't and I called them out of name (can't remember what).  They threw a screw driver at me, and then start throwing other tools.  I ran, I got Jaina who was getting the last things from the ouse.  I called 911 and told them the whole story.  They sent an old 60 year old sergeant.  He said he'd help us take care of it but I doubted it.  We went back to the house... at one point a Hmong family who knew him basically told him to f-off.  We went in the front door.  I yelled "MArk" and he came up the back stairs cussing.... The cop was going in, Mark came up wth a gun and confronted the Police Officer.... (who was not in uniform and didn't tell Mark he was a cop.  I was afraid he'd be shot so I yelled "Mark he's a cop!"  Then I went outside.... MArk and Lori rushed out....

Suddenly Jaina yells "It has to end right here".
"What?" I say
"What ever it is that began in 1889
"What began then?" I say puzzled.

I look at MArk, his eyes are filled with tears....
He tells me a story how in 1889, in a past life I kissed his wife, and shifted everyone's Karma for ever.

At first I want to laugh, but I keep a straight face and apologize.

I woke up 1 minute before the alarm.

***

Earlier I had been in an auditorium and who did I see, but Cliff from LNB... not the way that he would look today, but the way that he used to look.  Glowing.... We are surround by a sea of high school aged kids...  I comment about how amazing it is to find him, and me, and Aaron and Charles all at the same place at the same time.... I am sitting next to Demetrius Kolion.

Lead Paint revisited

We had moved back into Mark and Lori's house.  Mark and I had had some fairly good heart to heart, where he explained that he was no longer with Lori.... There was lead paint everywhere, but now we were buying the house, and were scraping, scraping, scraping, lead paint off walls, the plaster ceiling tiles had lead in them, it was everywhere.... One thing that was comforting though was that we were back in a harmonious relationship with the landlords.... I realize that  always liked them, and even though they misled us with the lead, and Misha was poisoned, I still felt a loss at having to end that relationship.

What is one to do, but surrender everything and act, keeping in mind the intention, may all beings everywhere be happy and free....

Chance's 2 Pythons

2 nights ago I had a dream that I went to chance apartment... it was still shared with Ascensia even though they were broke up.... She wasn't there, but I was supposed to meet chances.  I was with someone else... a guy, like Aldren.... There was a cupoard on the wall... the room was small and filled with little knicknacks and devotional things.... Suddenly the cupobaord opened and out came 2 enormous pythons, one was orange and one was green.  They're tails remained in the cupboard but they floated though the air as if it was water.  Their heads were as big as a mini football...  I moved to the other side of the room, when the orange one sturck.... It bit me.

Dream Kapalbhati

Dreamed that I had walked into the yard behind Susan eaton's house to meet with a multi dimensional being... I could her but no one else could.  She was projecting herself into my mind, and using my mind I could control her appearance, more or less against her will, but she didn't care because it wasn't really her it was just her appearance in my mind.  She came across the yard looking like a girl.  Susan was outside and had let out cotton?  Upon seeing the dog, I began to morph, the girl into a dog, basically using a kapalbhati type of frequency.  I then began to fade her out, and fade her in to my left , so gradually transitioned from one location to the other.... Then I kept putting more and more energy into her appearance until she became a big 20 foot tall half dog, half girl creature (she looked like animal from the muppets) and I went over and shook her hand.  This was so intense.  Upon touching her I became lucid, not in the sense that I knew I was dreaming, but in the sense that I knew I was there, and the landscape was fully 3 dimensional, and where our hands connected was an energetic vortex, and I felt her becoming conscious of her existence and "real" and I became scare, and knocked her feet out from under her so she would not become my master.

Earlier or later I can not say.... Other multi dimensional beings were visiting our world.  I don't know where they were from .  They were girls.  They made me "cookies" which were mind-altering.  Each cookie revealed different truths about the nature of reality and shifted my awareness in different ways.  The they brought the cookies in a crystal bowl, and the cookies each had a glaze of a different color, demarcating their different "medicinal" effects.

So now I am buying cookies from these visitors.  I met them in a beautiful garden with flowers, and stone path.  I was paying 1 dollar a piece for the cookies, and I wondered why they wanted dollar bills, but then I realized that it was just energy.  Then Ascentia and Jaina appeared in my awareness and warned me that this time the cookies were different, that they weren't meant to free me, but an attempt to imprison... I believe that is when I began to shift the appearance of the visitors....


Later was biking with my kids.... up 27th street to Joel's house, the Green House across from the community garden.  I noticed a for-sale sign, and yelled in through an open window.  Joel came out.  He was being very illusive about the price of the home, but basically assured me that it had already sold.  Mu daughters biked up on tricycles, one of them with Misha's arms wrapped around her neck.  Aima was upset because I had left her behind.  2 Girls came up to talk to Joel of the old, post punk, herbalist style, I so seldom see anymore... their clothes were grey and faded black like back in the day.  I fed my girls a particularly green and crispy plantain plant that I had pulled from the yard... It was delicious and I marveled that I rarely eat plantain.  Jaina showed up, and I explained that I didn't want the house because it was long and had no yard.... It was too big for our family, and didn't have the space to garden that I longed for.