Lucid Dream... Shot, Herbs and Haunted Lyndale

I was supposed to do a massage for one of my clients.  He asked me to come to his house.  He lived on 51rst and bryant the first house on the south east corner of the intersection.  As he was unlocking his door I started to feel suspicious of him.  We went into his house, walked upstairs.  It was still dark I heard the clinking of alchohol bottles.  I turned on the light.  He was over by the stereo.  He turned around, pointed his gun at me and shot.  The bullet hit me in the rib cage.  I slumped over an easy chair pretending to be dead.  He approached my body, talking, about something.  As he came into reach I grabbed him and wrestled.  Next thing I knew I was running down  the street away. Then George was there.  I'd forgotten that I was shot, and was telling George about how I have been having lucid dreams.    In fact, this is one I told him.  I looked around.  It was a not quite complete dream world.  It was real enough though, and we ran up the alley.  I was filled with a sense of awe, not at the dream scape, but at a deep underlaying knowledge that I was dreaming... Of coarse I was.

Earlier I had been living in a big house.... Ascentia had come over and I was supposed to give some kind of herbs, I guess pot.   I had no interest in the stuff, but my herbs cupboard was filled with it.  It my bedroom from 4th grade.  There had been something about driving across the city in an old run down car.  There was something happening in Powderhorn... older families with kids.  I went to their house, and sat on the couch.  It was a sense of being at the house of someone I really looked up to.  His kids played really well... their friends came over and there was no crying or fighting.  I was impressed.  I sat the whole time, laying back on a couch tired, wanting to go to sleep.

At one point there was some festival.  There were lots of hippy, type stoner kids there.  I sat down in a posittion of status next to Zach C. who was free styling... and I gave him a bud... Somehow he worked it into his rhyme that he asked me what it was called and I said "Oz" which rhymed.

At one point I was in haunted Lyndale, a place I have often been... It is Lyndale church from when I was growing up, but a little bit bigger, darker and weirder.  Really has a presence in it, a little bit alive.

Funny, when I woke up I didn't remember any of my dreams.

The Affair

Meditated in the middle of the night....tried to move into the flow, but my efforts prevented me.... when the flow is this subtle it seems the number one thing is surrender.

Dreamed that I was in the basement.  The kids were sleeping, it was night.   J was a wake, and started to tell me something, then stopped.  In the dining room I told her she had to tell me.  I said are you having an affair, she said yes.  I stayed calm.  Have you had sex?  She said yes.  I got upset.  The heat rose in me, and I started yelling.  And stomping in the night.  When I went back downstairs Jaina had taken the girls.

It was early morning light now and I went upstairs.  J and the girls were sleeping in my parents room.

I was able to pull J aside.  I asked her if it was more than once.  She said yes.  I asked her who it was.  She said Nguyen,  I thought she said Jim,  Grupper.  She said he looked just like me.  She told me he had the title of Dr. but wasn't a real Dr.   She told me that every week when I thought she was teaching, she would rent a canoe and they would make love in a lake.

I was crushed.

Trying to figure out what to do, because I love my kids so much and didn't want to be away from them.

I heard her on the phone with her mom, she was taking the kids over there.

I desperately scanned through my mind trying to think about how I could get even.



Earlier, I had been on the back of a motorcycle Jaina was driving.  Kaya was there and as WE drove away I gave him the peace sign.  We were driving through something cross between housing projects and a State fair ground.  The Air was granular and thick.

Then I was in an italian restaurant with many friends.  An Italian celebrity and his body guards, who we knew came in.  We nodded to each other.  Matt Los Rachel's husband was telling a story about having seen a film star, loudly by the bar, and was so engulfed in the story that he didn't notice the celebrities in the restaurant until they were on their way out.

Puzzling sequence OBE2

Puzzling sequence of events.....

I was in Sunday morning Shavasana.

I started to feel the buzzing in my body.

After about the third wave I decided to "Slip through" and breathed in the way described by Michaels monk.

I don't know when I crossed over, but The intensity became very great, the body rocking, waves and waves of intensity, also with the pain and heavyness in my legs and arms.... With my eyes closed I saw Shri Yantra, Glowing, and spinning, Like a vortex, I felt as if I was being drawn into it.  I heard the nada so loud it occured to me it could damage my hearing.  At one point I realized I was lying with my right leg in Virasana, and my left leg across imy leg in Pidgeon.  I was confuse.  How did This happen.  I heard someone in the room moving around.  I became slitghtly alarmed, because I was in Shavasnaas and felt vulnerable, but I didn't want to open my eyes because it might distrub the intensity of the meditation.  Finally I lifted my head a litlle and slightly opened my eyes... My legs were back in shavasana.

Next thing I remeber I was walking through the hallway outside the studio, it was time for class.  There was a table with 2 chairs by the lobby desk.  There were two people sitting there, dressed all in black, with balck ninja masks covering their faces.  They looked at me,  I looked at them and smiled warmly.  Laura Good was behind the desk.  She was concerned about her diet and wanted support.  Then I realized I'd forgotten "yoga pants" and rushed up a ramp into Jaina and my dorm room,  The kids were playing on the floor, a Huge woodeen door was leaning on a chair,  and I told Jaina if it fell on one of our kids it could kill them..... 

Then I was back in Shavasna on the floor at one.  That is all.